在笔记电脑前有发呆了；

呆了一个钟，有一个钟；

最后，我将手掌

用力得打着双脸颊。

叹了口气，关掉了电脑。

躺在床上，试着去睡觉。

绵羊数完了，牛也数完了，

公鸡数完了，母鸡也数完了。

连猪我也数完了，

还是睡不着。

开回了电脑，倒了杯冷奶

在电脑前，我又发呆了。

这种感觉真得很难受。。。

眼眶热了，鼻头带酸了。

双手握成拳头，拼命敲了敲头。

对自己暗骂说“笨蛋，猪头，傻瓜。”

最后，还是埋在电脑前哭了。

如果可以的话，

我很想再次注视着他那完美的脸庞；

很想再对他露出笑容的满足；

很想跟他做个朋友，了解他的一切；

很想在跟他乘搭同一个电梯的感觉；

很想再一次闻一闻他身上发出淡淡古龙水的味道。

如果也可以的话，

我很想见到真真实实，原货的你；

很想和你再好好的大笑一顿，说一堆愚蠢的笑话；

很想将双手在桌上扶着脸颊，酱静静得注视着你；

很想捏一捏你的鼻头，拍一拍你的脸夹；摸一摸你下巴的胡渣；

来确定我自己终于可以看到不是电脑里而是你真正的样子

很想把你抱得死劲，感觉着你真实的存在。

我八成是疯了。

我八成是已经把自己埋在自己的幻想世界里。

我八成也可能对爱情这个东西看得太过严重了。

很想把自己灌酒，灌到醉得不醒人事的那一种；

然后躺在床上，沉睡到自然醒，把一切伤心的实权都忘掉。

比起大哭，打吃；

还要好的自我反省期。

爱情，感情，一件钟情

这三样东西，来得很恐怖，去得也很恐怖。

最好是根本不要去爱嘛；

爱得连自己都搞不清楚。

我终于看清了，自己前几天那堆笨到不行的思想。

是时候，把它给飘得远远地。

如果真得有缘分的话，才来说吧。

你说，我傻不傻阿？

m.o.n.d.a.y... ... ... ... ... ...

*slips an oreo into the mouth*

And yes its a draggy one... I was up very very early today, just to straighten my hair permanently with the hair straigthener I got quite some time already. I had cursed N-times because I kept accidentally burning both my ears and fingers lol. Doing my hair is really a problem in the morning and it kills time. I was late for breakfast and my Mom scolding and my Dad nagging me thinking that I woke up late causing my lateness lol. -.-~ I also lazy argue with them lah, spoilt my morning later.

There is only four people in the office today including me. Hectic. Chaos. At least I can cope mine.... Nicely is terrible.... backing up two peoples' work and her own work. 3 versus 1. crappy developer. This is crazy, over stacking documents... While I am worrying about her, my work starts piling in too. wtf -.-~ I brought half of it home to do, together with the bill book. Promised Nicely I will draw more bill numbers for tomorrow. So I actually draw 5 pages o.O.... that's very little lol. I procrastinated I admit. LoL~

Somtimes how I wished that:

I had more guts; because....

I so so so wanted to talk to you! Badly REALLY BADLY!!! :'(... My Dars Seokkian is going to call me silly again *sigh* I am always silly...

jeng jeng jeng JENG~!!!!!!!!!!

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Baka.

I'm cute what. :P

That's all, I'm really super duper tired and sorta feverish. Time dumped mysef into the comfy bed and sleep. tata.

p.s. one tube Oreo = gone. :X

So this is a weekend.

Attended my godmother's grandson's full moon at MayFlower today :). Baby Dexter was so tiny, weighing 2.5kg only. D:

Chicken in Yellow Rice Wine!!

This is my kind of comfort food. Specially during PMS.... In our customs women who had given birth must have this and another dish called black vinegar pork / eggs to um.... 补身。lol~

This is my GodMother. :)

I didn't ate much, I promised someone I will lose weight to attend her sister's wedding.... right Kheng? :) :) :) :) :)

"That's why people hesitate. In front of all the choices, one could lose hope and try to run away, because no excuse could be used. No matter how dangerous the long journey in life was, or how one admits to being dealt the short end of the stick, everything was the result of one's own choices, it was a road chosen by oneself. Even if this path is hard, and there's no chance of changing past choices, one cannot place the blame on other people. No matter how angry or frustrated one was, one would be alone on that path, for no one to replace you." - Taiga of ToraDora!